From today http://icanhascheezburger.com/.
Warning: Some long complaints about personal womanly stuffs ahead.
That site of internet banality can always lift my mood up. And of course I laughed out loud since my cat, Fasha, totally does this in the morning to wake me up. If biting and scratching does not work, (to wake me up and feed her), she will come go to my face start licking around my face and hair. Urgh. Cat breath early in the morning.
Oh yeah, other people my age is telling tales about their kids. And I am telling stories about my cat. And it hurts when people complained that is the only thing I told. Because you know what, those cats are the only thing aside from my family and work, that are important in my life.I am not the life of a party y'all and I don't even GO (or got invited) to party. Even Tupperwares one. My routine consisting of going to work, back to work, dinner with husband/family and layan the insane antics of my cats.
Kids? Oh yes. I think as each year past, when a couple are still face with a childless year, the smile that accompanied to that answer for the question "Bile lagi?" gets more and more taut. I am not complaining nor stressing out since it is much too early. But I do get frustrated when people expect a kid is a must in a marriage and something is really wrong when you are not conceiving right away. Both husband and I, have not celebrated our 2nd year anniversary yet. We still got a lot to go through to learn and accept each other. But it does get frustrating when you know a girl say, 2 bulan into the marriage is happily exclaiming "There's a bun in the oven". Happy for her yes, but feeling kinda anal about feeling frustrated because you are slightly disappointed when the period come without fail every month.
And also another thing I am complaining about for new mothers is how they asked me what could go wrong in the pregnancy just because I had a miscarriage. There is a person at work who know she gotten pregnant, then immediately after telling me she is pregnant, she then asked me.. "So... what happened to your pregnancy eh? I don't want to follow the same mistake."
I am not angry. I understand their concern. But the question does sting. Even though I KNOW they are not implying such, but I felt like I'd fail to take care of myself sufficiently. Also it feel like I am like an infomercial to tell you what you CAN'T DO DURING PREGNANCY. Macam the poster child of Don't Drink and Drive or you end up like this. So I don't appreciate being likened to that. Every person is different. Every pregnancy is different. I can't guarantee you that what happened to me if you do the same can happen to you.
Wow, this post is becoming very personal. Anyway. That's that. Kinda like letting go of toxicities in my head.
p/s: I don't mean that I am angry when people asked me what went wrong to cause the miscarriage. But it does get kinda grating when a person asked, what went wrong? And I said nothing went wrong, it just happened. Then they kinda bites their lip, eyes unbelieving, and after a few seconds of silence asked me again : really, what happened to cause this?
Tak ke rase macam nak lempang kalo dah macam tu kan?
Dils felt like she had been ignoring her 'message signature'. Dils is perfectly amiable when people talks about their kids or pregnancy though, so don't worry about it. Dils still love talking about kids because she got 2 nephews who can be a holy terror next door.
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